As I lay in bed, my heart hurts. Today was a rough day for many different reasons. First, let me say that Ian's ok and he's been having good days.
We have had some things going on lately which have made me realize not all people are good. Well I've known it but it was just reinforced. In time those people will get theirs. Karma people, karma.
Today, both the SMA world and PCH world each lost a child. Two in one day, bamb hit me right in the face. One was quick, sudden. The other wasn't, over the past few days the family watched their child actively pass away. On Facebook, I am part of a SMA group as well as a PCH group so I read when kids pass away from these horrible diseases. Today really hit me, harder than it has in a long time. I am trying to find comfort knowing the kids are not in pain anymore. But the families are in a different kind of pain then they were before, one I know one day I will have to endure. I'm not ready for it, I don't know if I'll ever be ready for that pain. Every day, there is pain, watching your child be in pain, knowing there is not much you can do to make it better. The pain will be different.
As I lay here, awake, when I should be sleeping, my heart aches. For those families who lost their children today. My heart aches for my family as we know one day we will lose ours. For now I'm going to try to get some sleep and wake up tomorrow to a new day. One which I will treasure, dream, and live.