Logic vs emotion...logically my brain knows Ian's gone; emotionally my heart hurts. Logically, I know Ian's out of pain; emotionally my pain will always be there. Logically, I know he freed himself as well as us; emotionally I don't want to be freed. Logically, I know he is only gone physically; emotionally he will always be in my heart. Logically, my brain knows all of this plus more; emotionally my heart is broken. Logic vs emotion does it even makes sense.
Which one wins, some days logic wins most days emotion wins. Some days it is half one and half the other. Some moments its all or none. I try to remember that Ian would want us to live; to not be sad and to be okay. But then I think what does it mean to be okay, will we ever be okay? I think one day we will be "okay"; as okay as can be after losing a child. Logic vs emotion, can one of them ever win or be equal.