Next came turning in the paperwork for Ian's footstone. Seeing it in writing, was hard, difficult and heartbreaking.
Now comes tomorrow, 10 weeks and Thanksgiving day, knowing it was coming....stunk. I have tried to think of things I'm grateful for as I know there are plenty....but missing my little man and the hard time I've been having is over shadowing that. I know Ian would want us to be spending time with family enjoying each other so that is what we are doing. Many times I feel empty inside. I have been getting out and trying to enjoy myself, sometimes I do a better job then other times. I'm even having a hard time sitting here writing this because my emotions are all over the place, some empty and some full. At times, it has gotten harder instead of easier. I'm assuming this is "normal".
I am grateful for my family, friends and our village. I'm grateful for the wonderful 13 years Ian gave us. I try to remember these things every day. Not just on Thanksgiving.